So it has come to that time of year, when we all choose to reinvent ourselves and change things, we create resolutions and all that good stuff. I’ve never been inclined to create resolutions, but I do enjoy looking back at the past year, and thinking of the things I’ve accomplished over the past twelve months. I enjoy doing this because this time of year can be a bit on the emotional side for me. This way, I can see how far I’ve come, and know that I truly am reaching for my dreams and accomplishing my goals.
So, I thought I’d do a bit of a recap for you all, on the things that have gone on in my life, the good things I did, and favorite things I’ve designed or worked on.
- The thing I am most proud of, are my two daughters- Dakota and Dharma. They are my joy and my reason for living. I’m so blessed to have two kids who are both beautiful and smart, cool and nerdy. I love them. This picture was taken on the street when my daughters went with me to a street fair, which I did a bit more of this year than ever. I rarely do street fairs, being that I am so introverted, but I did go out of my comfort zone this year.
2. At first glance, my desk probably always looks the same, but I assure you it is a bit different. The We’Moon calendar is the one thing that is different. I hadn’t bought a day planner for this year, and had forgotten how I love this calendar the best. I hadn’t bought the We’Moon datebook in ages. I had forgotten about that part of myself: the part of myself that love spiritual things, and love to think about the phases of the moon, loves doing full moon rituals.
I want to say that this year, my art evolved a lot. It really did. I am happy for the turn in which my art and my artistic style took. I think perhaps this is another in the evolution of me that went on this year.
My Watercolor, while remaining the same subject, is evolving also. I’m so happy with this piece. To purchase, please contact me.
This year I also made my kids their Halloween costume! Last year I let the people around me bog me down, but this year I did not. I was like a trailblazer this year man, not letting any negative person permeate my sphere of happiness. And it shows, in things like this-making costumes for my kids.
Oh, and these cute hand painted journals are one of my favorite projects I made! These are super cute, and for sale here.
Oh, and I started posting up art videos again! It is challenging for me to post up videos as often as I’d like to, but I did post several on my youtube channel.
I still have these beautiful bags I’ve made. I’m really proud of my work. I’ve learned this year that no one in the world will believe in you, but you must believe in you. People can and will use you, oppress you, take advantage of you, and manipulate you. They will try to bring you down. But you must remain firm in who you are. I haven’t got everything I want, but I have everything I need, and I am okay with who I am. It’s tough when someone who is supposed to love and care for you shows that they really do not care about you at all, or who you are as a person. It’s almost degrading to your self esteem, and you begin to think, “maybe I am a shitty person.” The truth is, just because a person is related to you, doesn’t mean they have to love you. They don’t. I tell my daughter all the time, you can’t help who you love and you can’t help who you don’t love. The true issue lies in when the person who does not love, says they do. That’s when you kindly let them go. Believing in yourself is the key to success in any field of life. That was the tough and emotional lesson that 2017 taught me. I may be a stubborn woman, but one thing is for sure: I believe in myself and my art and my daughters.
This year I went to a couple of open mics, to read my poetry-something I hadn’t done a whole lot of. I plan on doing that more this coming year, though. 2017 was such a hard year for me emotionally. Everything else in my life has been going well, but love really sucked the joy out of my life this year. I had someone in my life who was taking advantage of my kindness. Actually, I had four people like that, all of whom I have removed from my life. My kindness is not something to be taken for granted, but it was. And the sadness of having gave, and not being given in return….it ate at me. It attempted to consume me with sadness, but I learned just this past week or so, that I like where I’m at. And I learned that 2018 is the year to do as in music, go “back to coda”- back to the beginning. I want to go back to the beginning, back to who I was before the heartache and before the pain. And poetry readings is a big part of that. I have decided to stop worrying about other people and trying to keep non functional friends, and just focus on the things I love to do. And that is what I shall continue to do. Life is too short otherwise.
I made these cute moon earrings this year, and found so many fun new supplies to design jewelry with! This year between school and work and my kids, I am quite busy. It’s very much a challenging being a single mother to begin with, let alone live with extended family that you do not really get along with. Life can be a challenge. I love the moon because I look at how the moon fills up and then empties out. It is the same in nature. Nature as a whole, has the idea of life and death down to a science. I’ve learned this year that although things die, it makes space for new things. And that it may hurt for a moment, but the key is to get back up and move forward. Life can be amazing, if you make it. These beautiful earrings are for sale, here.
My greatest accomplishment this year was getting my art in a few galleries in New Jersey. I am so grateful and so humbled that you guys like my artwork. Truly. For me, it is an honor to be recognized. I work really hard, and it’s nice that sometimes all the hard work doesn’t go unnoticed.
So, that concludes my review of 2017. It was filled with a lot of emotional pain, more than I’ve experienced in 4 years. So much. And so often I felt alone. I let go of several toxic and narcissistic people, and while needed, it was also very very challenging. It was emotional. I went through so many emotional challenges this year, but I am stronger for it. I know the best is yet to come, and these are not empty claims filled only with a hollow faith and no work to back it up. I know the best is yet to come because I work damn hard for it.