Greater than Heartache

So I figured I’d show you a bit of what I’ve been working on. I know I’ve been a bit quiet as of late, but I’ve had a lot going on lately, and share a poem I wrote.

Oh, here’s the video:

Greater than Heartache

I will be greater than the heartache that
Beats from my chest
I will be greater than that, I
Birthed two children from my vagina yes I said vagina
I birthed two children
With no pain medication, so
I can take pain
It’s familiar yet
For me
But I will not cower
I will sit with this pain until I no longer cry for you
Until I no longer shed the tears for the nightmare that came true,
One day
I will be someone without you
One day
I will not cry for you anymore
I
Cry for you
Four years later, I
Still wish you were mine
Years later but I will not cower
I shed enough tears for you, fucked
The wrong people in search of you
In them
I will not cower
I will wipe the tears from my eyes, my love and call you that no longer
I will see the good in you in our daughters and I will thank goddess
You are a real father
But I will not cower
I will not cower anymore
Old friend, I am shy no longer
I am the mighty warrior goddess who’s name I bear
I am arms outstretched sacrificing myself
To save myself
I am
I am
I am
And I will go on
And remember you and go on
And not cower
I will not mourn the death what was any longer, I
Will not cry the tears of death any longer, I
Will not shed the tears of grief over a love that died
It died a long time ago and I buried it in the cemetery next to the hopes and
Dreams I used to have, they’re
Buried alongside the hopes I once had to find true love
All buried there
I lost my hope to find lasting love
I will not cower
I will not
I will not
I will not
I will wipe my tears
I will bury You in my past alongside the child I used to be and the
Innocence I had once and the
Starry eyed hopes I
Once
Had, I
Want to bury you in the cemetery next to my hopes that my mother will love me
And so I buried you
I
Buried you that
In the cemetery
Alongside the hopes that my father will approve of me

 

 

 

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