It was a beautiful kind of pain

 

“A beautiful kind of pain”
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He wore a wig of solitude and

walked

away and

an angel whispered, “it’s a beautiful kind of pain”

she couldn’t see it

she wouldn’t see it

she didn’t see it

she had

willing placed shackles upon her heart and feet

“Damn this pain and this blood soaked madness!” She exclaimed in sheer terror of the level of pain

in which she was in

mall she could do was paint

to

drown out the words he’d say

the

names he called her

and how he shamed her

into hiding her Nuyorican accent and her

curly hair

she painted so much

she almost ran out of paint and

one day she she stopped crying

And one day she felt good

and happy

Again

And in the midst of laughter with good friends

mover vodka and cigarettes

she said and smiled, in perfect peace,

“it was a beautiful kind of pain

it turned my black heart

to the colors of my paints

turned my tears

into paintbrushes and

placed words in my heart of poems never written

it was a beautiful kind of pain, the

evolving kind of pain

the growing kind of pain

the giving birth Kind of pain

and I can say now

that I learned to love

as an adult

that I know what love can be at my age

and I know what love is not

and so maybe this is the definition of happy:

this me, here with paintbrushes in hand

and this me, cooking for the ones I love

this me, at peace

it was a beautiful kind of pain and I

pity him

for his

wig of solitude.

What a sad and pathetic life to lead-

to refuse the love from another.”

 

currently listening to:

Outside of the inside

 

 

So I told him,
I
Wear myself outside of the inside
Like a flag or banner
I wear who I am
Outside of the inside
I
Speak in parables
In stories and poems
And I wear myself
Outside of myself
Like a flag or banner
Like the majestic flag of Puerto Rico,
The one that was forbade to the Boricua people
When the United States came and took over
I wear myself proudly
Like an old Puerto Rican woman hails her flag
That is how I wear who I am
Outside of the inside, I
Wear who I am like a flag
Do not mince words and
Enjoy whiskey with my poems and
Cannabis with my paintings and
Wine goes very well with motherhood and University school work
I
Wear who I am
Outside of the inside
Like a flag or banner
In my articles of clothing you see the years of old punk rock shows and
Late nights and
Road trips and
The Grateful Dead and Bob Dylan and
The Sex Pistols
The Toasters
The Specials
And the
Songs of Hector Lavoe, that sing sweet melodies to my soul, indeed
And I wear who I am
Outside of the inside
Like a flag or banner
What you see
Is what you get
I am
Boricua.

 

Just the three of us

New painting I’ve made:

 

It’s called, “We can make it if we try” and it’s an ode to the Otis Redding song, “Just the two of us”.

The three owls sit next to each other and love each other and know that they can make it.  Love always is the strongest force imaginable. Always. And that is what this painting reflects.

I know I haven’t posted a new journal page. Sorry about that. To be honest, Ive been busy studying for midterms . I just finished up my marketing midterm, so I am okay to post another video, I think.

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Looking out for love

So I’ve  made a new painting. I call this one, “looking out for love”, and the title is inspired by the song by Fleetwood Mac.

 

 

 

This painting is sort of a journey. It tells the story of a person in love, who wants nothing more than for the feeling to be reciprocated.

To purchase this painting, please email me by using the Contact me tab in this website.

Currently listening to:

 

Follow Along With Me: Mixed Media Journal Page

It’s Tuesday, and I’ve created a new video for you.

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An ode to my children

An ode to my children, who keep me in line

who keep me up late

and make me smile.

I miss you.

You’re away with your father and oh how I miss you

without you, mama is a holy hot mess.

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Follow Along With Me: Abstract Buddha

 

 

So I made a new video on YouTube! I know it’s been a minute, I’ve been so busy these days studying for finals and such.

 

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Launching Your Art Business-Questions to Ask, Things to Remember

If you have decided to launch a business, you have made a very courageous choice. There are many things you need to know before launching a new business. There is inventory to take into consideration, initial start-up cost and upkeep, hiring employees, sales, marketing…and the list goes on extensively.

Here are some top questions you need to ask yourself before launching your own business.

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Mixed media abstract art journal

So I’ve made a new book. I’m having so much fun making them! I’m in the process of making a video on how I make the pages, so just be patient and it will happen soon.

Heres a few pictures:

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Follow Along With Me: On Moving On

So I made a new video on YouTube of me making a page in my art journal. It’s called Moving on.

Check it out:

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